Entertaining the Essence Within

What if you were able to be free of all of the constraints of society and your mind, who would you be? Letting go of all the titles and pressures placed upon you from work, your spouse, family, and yourself. What keeps you in the illusion that you have to restrict who you are to please everyone else? And given the opportunity to break away from all those things do you sabotage your success? 

For a long time I held onto the pattern of basing my decisions on things that seemed rational and secure for the fear of being labeled as what society calls a failure. I’ve worked in jobs that I hated and Ive made financial mistakes trying to prove that I didn’t need help. Although I had resources available to me, because of pride I allowed myself to be a martyr to my own stubbornness. Most importantly, in those impulsive decisions I created a cycle of holding myself back from living by going into a day to day cycle of just existing. 

As Ive grown and challenged the way I think and respond to obstacles as they arise in my life, Ive realized that the only limitations we have are the those we have placed on ourselves. I also accept that I play a huge part in the unhappiness I’ve experienced in the past based upon my attitude, my need to compare myself to others, and ultimately not trusting myself enough to just be. Energetically I placed myself in a time capsule where my life stood still and everything I wanted seemed just out of reach. However that was the reality I created based on my fear to not accept who and what Im evolving into. And once I realized that key concept through attracting the same dilemmas and situations to myself, I was able to see the bigger picture as it relates to my life.  When I decided to drown out the voice of my spirit and my inner child I gave way for society to turn me into a caricature of myself. I was fortunate enough to be able to see the limitations I allowed my psyche to place on myself and I went through  intense initiations in order to rewire misconceptions/miseducation I developed in my ignorance.  

My ultimate goal is to be able to help others not only find peace and solace within themselves, but to also learn how to navigate through external factors in their environment that may cause a setback in the progress they’re making in learning themselves. Sometimes it is not enough to want change. In the journey of self awareness we must hold ourselves accountable for every mishap and every roadblock that occurs and a lot of times we are afraid to do that because we fear holding a mirror to our imperfections and toxic patterns. The attachment of ego holds us stagnant and confined into the molded image we’ve allowed society to create for us. However once we can recognize this defect from the root cause, we can then move forward and inward to truly live in the essence of who we are supposed be.

– Mercedes Desiree MD